You know I'd do most anything you want,
I'd try to give you everything you need,
I can see that it gets to you..
I don't believe in many things
But in you I do...

You know that feeling?

When you are waiting, waiting to get home,

close the door and sink into bed.

And just let everything out that you have kept in all day, week, month.

That feeling of both relief and desperation,

Nothing is really wrong,

But then nothing is really right either.

And you're tired.

Tired of everything, tired of nothing.

And you just want someone there to tell you its all going to be okay in the end.

But no one really is there.

And you have to try and be strong for yourself,

because you are the only one who can fix you.

But you're tired of being the only one who can fix you,

and you're tired of feeling that you have to try and help fix others.

Tired of trying to be strong.

And for once, you just want it to be easy.

To be simple. To be helped. To be saved.

But you know you won't be.

But you're still waiting.

And you are always hoping.

And you are still trying to stay strong,

with tears in your eyes.

A musician paints their art on silence.

Songs of the day 18/08/2011

Dirty Little Secrets - Sarah Machlachlan

(Thievery Corperation Remix)

The A Team - Ed Sheeran

(Koan Sound Remix)

Jesus is a Rochdale girl - Elbow

Sea legs - The Shins

Rain City - Turin Breaks

Stupid - Sarah Machlachlan

(Hyper Remix)

Full Moon - The Black Ghosts

Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World

Dirty little secrets..

If I had the chance, love
I would not hesitate
To tell you all the things I never said before
Don't tell me it's too late

Cause I've relied on my illusions
To keep me warm at night
But I denied in my capacity to love
I am willing, to give up this fight

I've been up all night drinking
To drown my sorrow down
Nothing seems to help me since you went away
I'm so tired of this town..

Where every tongue is wagging
When every back is turned
Their telling secrets that should never be revealed
There's nothing to be gained from this
But disaster..

Here's a good one..
Did you hear about my friend?
He's embarrassed to be seen now
because we all know his sins

If I had the chance love
You know, I would not hesitate
To tell you all the things I never said before
Don't tell me it's too late

Cause I've relied on my illusions
To keep me warm at night
But I denied in my capacity to love
I am willing, to give up this fight

Do the walls come down When you think of me?

Do your eyes grow dim?

Do the walls come down When you think of me?

Do you let me in?

Nothing like a rainy night

To set your heart rememberin'

Nothing like a vivid dream

To take you back again

When you think of me Do your eyes grow dim?

Do the walls come down When you think of me?

Do you let me in?

Something in my pocket

That was written years ago

In faded ink says,

'You are my fire'

Do you think so...

Is it easier for you to say

You never loved me anyway

Or do you hide me in your attic trunk

...Like a stowaway?