An addiction's and addiction...

What if I can't be all that you need me to be
We've got a good thing going, we have some promises to keep
But my addiction it can be such a detriment
Please believe in this my dear, I am more than penitent

What if everything’s just the way that it will be
Could it be that I am meant to cause you all this grief
My war ships are lying off the coast of your delicate heart
And my aim is steady and true as it's been right from the start

There's a degree of difficulty in dealing with me
From my haunted past comes a daunting task of living through memories.
If we could just hang a mirror on the bedroom wall, stare into the past and forget it all

So when we leave it'll be a quick midnight escape
We'll disconnect ourselves from all of yesterday
I'll dig for water and fashion our very own wishing well
Then we'll throw our coins down hoping to rid of us of this little hell

There's a degree of difficulty in dealing with me
From my haunted past comes a daunting task of living through memories.
If we could just hang a mirror on the bedroom wall, stare into the past and forget it all

Heavy Water..

Oh this feeling doesn't go away

I feel it moving through me.

I want the love I had inside,

Want to feel it moving through me.

In my dreams

I'm moving through heavy water

this love is enormous

it's lifting me up.

I'd rather be sleeping.

I'd rather fall in to tidal waves,

and go where the deepest currents flow.

I opened a mirror up,

and saw a true love.

I let it separate in two

the water rising up over my head.

In dreams I'm moving through heavy water,

the love is enormous,

its lifting me up

I'd rather be sleeping.

I'd rather fall in to tidal waves.

And go where the deepest currents go.

You're not the girl you think you are.
They're not his shoes under your bed,
he'll take you places in his car,
that you won't forget.

And all the people that you know
will turn their heads as you go by,
but you'll be hard to recognize,
with the top down and the wind blowing, blowing.

He won't deceive you or tell you the truth.
He'll be no trouble,
he won't write you letters,
full of excuses.
Come on, believe you have one in a million.

You're not the girl you think you are.
Someone's standing in your place.
The bathroom mirror makes you look tall,
but it's all in your head, in your head.

You're not the girl you think you are.

How can i stand here with you..

And not be moved by you?

You are the strength,
That keeps me walking.
You are the hope,
That keeps me trusting.
You are the light,
To my soul.
You are my purpose,
You're everything.

So how can I stand here with you,
And not be moved by you?
Would you tell me,
How could it be,
Any better than this?

You calm the storms,
And you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands,
You won't let me fall.
You steal my heart,
And you take my breath away.

So why can I stand here with you,
And still not be moved by you?

I’ve seen love go by my door,
It’s never been this close before,
Never been so easy or so slow,
Been shooting in the dark too long,
When somethin’s not right it’s wrong,
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go

Dragon clouds so high above,
I’ve only known careless love,
It’s always hit me from below,
This time around it’s more correct,
Right on target, so direct,
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go

Purple clover, Queen Anne’s Lace,
Crimson hair across your face,
You could make me cry if you don’t know,
Can’t remember what I was thinkin’ of,
You might be spoilin’ me too much, love,
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go.

Flowers on the hillside, bloomin’ crazy,
Crickets talkin’ back and forth in rhyme,
Blue river runnin’ slow and lazy,
I could stay with you forever and never realize the time.

Situations have ended sad,
Relationships have all been bad,
Mine’ve been like Verlaine’s and Rimbaud,
But there’s no way I can compare,
All those scenes to this affair,
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go.

You're gonna make me wonder what I’m doin’
Stayin’ far behind without you,
You're gonna make me wonder what I’m sayin’
You're gonna make me give myself a good talkin’ to.

I’ll look for you in old Honolulu,
San Francisco, Ashtabula.
You're gonna have to leave me now, I know
But I’ll see you in the sky above
In the tall grass, in the ones I love
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go.

New words for old desires..

If I compiled

All my crimes and my lies into amnesty,

Would you come back to me?

The smile on my lips

Is a sign that I don't hear you leaving me,

And I don't hear my own soul scream,

Don't blame yourself,

Don't change yourself,

Just want to be over you.

To Save you love.

Sometimes the hardest things & the right thing are the same...